II Divo
Amazing Grace

I lost my friend of some 9 years. I rescued her from the house across the street. Left as collateral for some drug deal, they tossed her out the front door when she went to the bathroom on the carpet. Fleas, mange, worms, malnourished. She learned what having a home with someone that loves you was really about. A little puppy should always have a home. Over the last 9 years I watched her grow into a wonderful dog. Not always the best behaved but always a lover.

She had been sick the last couple of days. Doctors thought she might have a bladder infection. My wife and I got so upset with her when she went to the bathroom all over the family room. We were making her stay outside for a few days, hoping the meds would clear up the problem. She didn't eat much of her dinner. I went out back to give her her evening pill. Called and called, no answer. After getting the flashlight to see if she had broken out of the fence, I found her, laying in the corner of the yard. She was already gone.

I feel so lost. I can't get that picture of her out of my head. I wonder, if I had just been there with her, could I have done something to save her? I wasn't with her in those last moments........

This in not my first loss, and I know it won't be the last. My only comfort right now is her older sister, Jezebelle. She's been by my side most of the morning. She knows what has happened, she saw Sugar Bear laying there. I think she'll get through this better than I.

It will be a week until I have Sugar Bear's ashes. That will be another tough day. For now I'm just trying to get through the day. Get through the tears. It's hard to be the tuff guy when your heart is broken.

I have seen the morning sun
rise upon my window panes.
I have seen the glory of the sun
as sets at end of day.
I have seen rebirth in the
beginnings of each new day.
I have heard the sounds cast
in my mind of words unsaid.

On a clear day, I can see
forever in the skies above me.
I have seen the love as soft
eyes gazed gently into mine,
I have known love on four legs,
more so than ever I have two.
I have had the pleasure of time
that stands still in my mind.

I have shared the silver of
the teardrops as they fell,
I have heard the words of
others in much pain.
There have been things I
know left unsaid as time heals,
But I have sensed those
teardrops fall like rain.

It is known the pain of words
written for this heart that hurts,
And words fill the gap that time
has not yet felt the need to erase,
You too have words that you too
have yet to speak or write,
About the great hurt of the tears
that you wet upon your face.

So let we who care share your
pain with you my friends,
Let not ever the glory of the
rainbows shine be for naught.
One day more shall we rise
to smell the beauty of the rose.
And once more in the web of
great love shall we be caught.

Yes you have known the glory of
the sunrise as it burst upon the land,
And seen it slowly drift across the
meadow gently kissed with dew.
You have felt its warming rays
spread and warm your very soul,
And you have known the love
of four legs, just as you have two.

You know this life as it stands
is not without its grief,
So Live on this life that you
know you must fulfill,
Until that day that you are
called upon to go,
And you will see the sunlight
shine again upon your sill.

(c) LoboWolf Aka Don Dade

Light a candle in Sugar Bear's memory, for a sick, abused, or special needs furbaby, or perhaps just someone who needs a prayer and a candle lit.

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